Patterns of Life

I recently had a conversation with my mother about what day the Lord will come is going to be. There are many times that I just stop and ponder this through out the year and wonder if I'm ready. I know how exciting it would be to be raptured and my heart wants that more than anything. At the same time, I get a little sad thinking about how much I will miss being gone from here. I think it's because I have this vision of being in heaven and not knowing what it will be like. On Earth we each have some kind of security or safety net that we cling to, it helps us get through difficult times, joys, weaknesses, and strongholds. I know that God is who I trust and go to first and foremost, but my family has been my security or safety net. I desire to have that relationship with God that would be willing to sacrifice everything I have, including my family for him. I know that is what Abraham was willing to do with Isaac. I question - am I that faithful to God that I could lay my children and my husband upon the altar and say here Lord, do with them what you will.

I want their lives to be a reflection of his love, grace, and mercies. I desire that each of my children develop a relationship with God that will sustain them and grow with them throughout their lives. If the Lord does choose to come, think of all the suffering they will not have to go through because they each belong to him. That is worth the sacrifice.....