New Beginnings

This is a time of new beginnings for our family. I won't go into details about our past year, for one thing it would take to long, but I will just say I'm thankful for restoration. There are many times in this path of life that we may feel the need to surrender and give up the fight, but yet God's mighty hand sustains us and allows us the ability and courage to press on. Last Saturday I attended the Women of Faith in KC. My whole life changed in those two days. I was able to search my heart and capture the true essence of what God needed me to do in order to have a relationship with him and my family. His faithfulness is true and his love for us is so deep and genuine, nothing can ever take it's place. May each of you know the peace that my heart feels daily. The Lord showed me that I needed a heart transplant, once that took effect, amazing things began happening in my family. I will rejoice for he has made me glad!!

Patterns of Life

I recently had a conversation with my mother about what day the Lord will come is going to be. There are many times that I just stop and ponder this through out the year and wonder if I'm ready. I know how exciting it would be to be raptured and my heart wants that more than anything. At the same time, I get a little sad thinking about how much I will miss being gone from here. I think it's because I have this vision of being in heaven and not knowing what it will be like. On Earth we each have some kind of security or safety net that we cling to, it helps us get through difficult times, joys, weaknesses, and strongholds. I know that God is who I trust and go to first and foremost, but my family has been my security or safety net. I desire to have that relationship with God that would be willing to sacrifice everything I have, including my family for him. I know that is what Abraham was willing to do with Isaac. I question - am I that faithful to God that I could lay my children and my husband upon the altar and say here Lord, do with them what you will.

I want their lives to be a reflection of his love, grace, and mercies. I desire that each of my children develop a relationship with God that will sustain them and grow with them throughout their lives. If the Lord does choose to come, think of all the suffering they will not have to go through because they each belong to him. That is worth the sacrifice.....